Before I start, I just want to say that this is a post that I’ve had written ages ago but I hadn’t published it yet. There are so many things that I’ve had going on in my life in the past year but the past month has been one of the toughest times that I’ve gone through. I don’t know why but there is one person that I Just Want Keep Calling Your ( His ) Name and it’s something that I’ve thought long and hard about.
I shouldn’t want to be calling his name as he’s the person that hurt me the most in the time we were together. This is someone that I seen myself with, possibly marrying and settling down with – I’ve always been told, never go out with anyone if you don’t see yourself marrying them. I actually seen him for the first time in years the other day and there he was with his wife to be and they’re little girl.
When I seen he was with them and I didn’t know that he was getting married until my mate told me – it broke my heart. My heart was broken already but you know when you know for a fact that it’s supposed to be you there rather than her? That was me literally for the past few days. I just wanted him to be happy in reality – at the time we were together, he meant the world to me and I still do care a lot for him.
I guess this post is just me really ranting and getting everything off my chest! I’m glad that he’s happy and has his family that he’s always wanted. I just don’t want to come accross as jealous you know? Because I’m not jealous at all.. Just know for a fact that person was going to be me at one stage. We all have that one person that we’ve felt like this way for.
Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened!
Bee ox
Life Of Beaa 
Hi Bee! I’m so sorry to hear. This honestly sounds so hard – I’ve been somewhere similar before, but not nearly as bad as in your case. It feels so horrible at first – especially the morning after when you wake up and you feel like you can’t go on with your life after what happened – but trust me, it always gets better eventually. Give it a bit of time to heal. One day you’ll be able to look back and think: I did it – I’m still alive and okay after what happened. Surround yourself with positive people and experiences. Having a supportive network really helps. Hope all gets better – we’re here for you!
xx Enyiie
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This was how I felt when things ended with LC, I literally thought my heart had been ripped out of my chest. I couldnt breath, I honestly didn’t know how I would get on with my life without him. Thankfully I’ve found a way, I still miss him like crazy! But you will, you just learn to move on
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